Everyone female on the planet remembers the movie "The Notebook" right? I think I saw it at the theatre at least 3 times, and was in line to buy the movie when it came out on DVD. That movie was life chaning for me, and helped me realize that I had ignored myself, and my creativity for MUCH too long.
The painting scene (captured below) hit me so hard, I was a sobbing idiot in the theater when I saw it for the first time. I had become so busy being someone that I though I was supposed to me, and stopped listening to myself, and what I truly wanted to be, and do with my life.
I NEED to be creative. Whether it's crocheting a granny square blanket, or surfing the net for new artwork for our home. It is a part of me, and I truly NEED that in my life.
This fact really hit me hard - again - last night. My daughter was staying overnight at her grandparents house, since our sitter was on vacation for a couple days, and we still had to work - my hubby was at softball, and for the first time in likely at LEAST a year, I had the entire house to myself. And not just for 10 or 15 minutes. But 4 entire hours! You have NO idea how happy I was to have this time to myself. Finally some ME time. Yet, I did nothing. Nothing but sit my butt on the sofa, watching HGTV, and catching up on the latest antics on Jersey Shore.
Here I was looking forward to some time alone, yet I felt like I had totally wasted it watching trash TV. I felt guilty. Guilty that I wasn't doing the one thing that I kicked myself for so many years ago. I should of at least picked up my crochet and did some more work on a blanket i'm working on for my daughter's big girl bed. Or I could have worked on some blog posts. Or I could have started that mood board I've been meaning to start.
But I didn't. I sat on my butt, and watched the tube instead, where all I did was miss my kid.
What's the point of me time, if you don't use that me time constructively? So, i've made myself a promise, to NOT do that again. It made me realize that sure I need my me time, but I need my creative time MORE. So, it's come time to make conscious effort to start taking that creative time. Even if it's only 30 minutes a day. It's something. And i'll feel better when that rare 3-4 hour window comes along again for me to JUST DO NOTHING.
Do you take me time? How to you spend it? Doing something creative? Doing nothing like I did last night? Or do you do something else?